Awareness and Awakening: No Going Back
Awareness and awakening change everything. A year ago, I overcame my fear of discussing my experiences with overcoming anxiety and depression. When I created my blog and YouTube channel, I thought I had a plan, and although I had almost completed my book, I wondered why it felt unfinished. I was on my way to fulfilling a purpose, or so I thought.
After fully grasping the idea that we are all part of the same consciousness, all the same God who is asleep within us all, occupying these garments of flesh we all wear, my purpose shifted. It shifted because I now know that our purpose (all of us) is to fully awake to realize who we are. From a young age, I knew I would one day teach and share my experiences. It makes sense now, even though, at the time, I wasn’t sure why I knew so profoundly that it was what I would one day do.
The Desire vs. Purpose
Writing about my experiences and overcoming anxiety and depression was, I thought, my purpose. It started as a child but a desire nonetheless, not a purpose. My purpose is to awaken, just as your purpose is to awaken from this dream of life. If what I am saying now does not resonate with you, I promise you one day, it will. If you are reading this, something led you here, so perhaps ask yourself why?
I never thought I would be writing about awareness and awakening, much less because God is within us and not a being outside of us. But here I am writing about those very things. It makes it difficult to bring up the old story of someone who struggled for 40+ years with depression and anxiety.
No Going Back
A part of me does not want to revisit the story. However, I know it is necessary to continue to share my experiences because they have brought me to this moment. Many people struggle and don’t know why, but there is a reason, and once it’s understood, the work can be done to stop the struggle.
Once one understands that the purpose is to awaken, once it resonates, one starts to look at everything in your awareness differently. When that happens, there is no going back. It is impossible to unsee everything you begin to see after awakening. One cannot inexperience the incredible changes that occur once you become aware that your physical senses no longer limit you.
It has been quite the journey, but I know it has only begun. I am grateful now for all of the sufferings I endured. The experiences will allow me to teach others how to overcome their suffering and how to see life through a new set of eyes.