What Anxiety and Depression taught me About Strength & Vulnerability
Well, there were many, many years that I considered being vulnerable to weakness. I found it difficult to communicate my feelings accurately. Therefore, rather than risk being misunderstood or burdening anyone with my issues, I closed myself off to developing deep, emotional connections with people.
Therefore, what I’ve learned is that there needs to be a balance. Being vulnerable does not make you weak. In fact, by embracing vulnerability, you show strength.
Unfortunately, for strong women, our strength is often worn like a suit of armor; a shield that protects us from the outside world. I grew up learning to develop strength as a way of protecting myself at an early age.
It became abundantly clear though when I was young, that no one would be there to protect me when I needed to be protected. So, vulnerability meant weakness and that weakness made me prey. I was prey to those who sexually assaulted me to those who bullied me.
Thankfully, I am now able to embrace vulnerability and in doing so, there's a new level of strength. I feel more empowered now and I’ve truly learned to love myself.
Sense of Freedom
As I write this, I realize that so many of the events of my past have washed away on the tides of emotion that no longer serve me. I love the freedom of being able to balance strength and vulnerability.
Having a sense of balance has allowed me to open my heart more to relationships. Where I once felt insecure and introverted, I am now finding that I am not an introvert at all. I wonder what the future holds and I look forward to creating deep and meaningful relationships.